THIS KILLS ME
It’s almost palpable, the realization. I didn’t matter to you at all, did I? I don’t matter to you now. You defined the last decade of my life, but you won’t even bother to look at me. I’m nothing to you.
erik probably thinks the same. ten years without a helmet to keep charles out, and not once did charles reach out…
And he still isn’t…
Yeah, just twist the knife a tad more, why don’t you.
Although I am wondering if at this point Erik is not thinking that he’s spent the last few years hating Charles for not even once attempting to reach out to him only to learn now that Charles doesn’t HAVE his powers anymore, if this isn’t Erik wondering if hating Charles just a bit is not still validated, even if the reason has changed.
*as M-Knight level douchebaggy as it is to reblog your own post can I just-*
Guys, guys, enough with the despair, these guys are grown ups ok they know they each other, they know they mean a lot to each other (that’s what makes it so tragic, right?)
I think Erik isn’t precious about his past and moves on quickly, so he’s not angsting about 'you never called, you never wrote' but he might well be thinking ‘well shit this explains a lot’ and might be on the brink of ‘forgiving’ Charles for not saving any of the mutants who died when he was in prison.
(But once he finds out Charles chose this, he’s disgusted: ‘are you fucking kidding me all those people died because you wanted LEGS??’)
And meanwhile we have Charles… who, even though he doesn’t have his telepathy, is reading Erik correctly:
He knows what Erik’s thinking about (the loss of his powers),
and knows he’s about to say something about it (that’s what the head-duck/look to the side means; it’s the ‘pardon did you say something?’ because he’s so sure Erik’s about to speak it’s almost like he’s already heard it.)
I guess you could call this is an mpregnant silence. ~_^
Erik knows Charles is watching him, knows Charles is wondering what he’s thinking
so when he says ‘how did you lose them?’
he knows he doesn’t even need to turn his head
(he knows Charles knows he’s talking to him)
or clarify what he’s talking about
(he knows Charles knows this is what he’s thinking about).
It’s literally been a decade since they saw each other and they’re at each others’ throats
but five minutes together and they’re totally in tune with each other, even without telepathy. >_<
And Erik still knows Charles better than anyone!
So even tho you’ve got Logan (who in theory has known Charles for far longer than him) trying to stop the fight… Erik… Erik says 'let him come' because he knows this is what Charles needs (and deserves the chance to say).
However, I think after the face-punch Erik was expecting more rage and less sorrow from Charles, he was expecting physical blows, but that 'you ABANDONED me!' was an emotional punch… seemed to wind him for a second.
(Typical Charles move! Go for the emotional solar plexus — it’s super-effective!)
I think poor Charles wants to just be Angry here, but there’s so much hurt in him that it leaks out and softens any attack he could make. That’s why he slips up with the ‘I gave up my powers so that I could sle-‘ (and is then like ‘damnit! NO. I am NOT showing any weakness in front of this fucker!’)
Also I think he’s secretly ashamed of himself for choosing his legs over his mutation and knows Erik’s going to (rightly) call him on it, and he’s probably ashamed of the decrepit state he’s in and humiliated to be seen like this in front of Erik.
So he’s spoiling for a fight but can’t keep the sadness out of his eyes.
(And also the part of him that loves Erik *which let’s face it is never far from the surface* and abhors violence is probably a bit guilt-ridden for the momentary lapse in judgement which allowed him to punch Erik on the schnozz, however richly deserved.)
So his ‘attack’ falls short because his heart’s not really in it.
(Plus he is really, really pants at violence.
Like astonishingly bad at it.)
So in conclusion:
CHARLES XAVIER = ONE MIXED-UP CAT.
Chris Pratt is actually the nicest most humble celebrity in the world. Fact.
carpe diem - seize the day
carpe noctem - seize the night
carpe natem - seize the ass
Seriously, if you guys don’t stop reblogging this I am going to carpe someone’s neck and break it.
carpe collum - seize the neck
i always wonder why no one likes me and then i remember i dont even like me
can a ghost and a zombie come from the same person
Is this a comic? This should be a comic.
"no stupid, oh my god. no just… just turn… fuck. don’t wander over there, you’re gonna fall down the… aaand there he goes………….. moron.”
Is that karkat